Clout Chasing

As Cardi B and Offset say…“They do anything for clout.” They do anything for clout.” They do anything for clout.” That is definitely what’s going on today. Most people of my younger generation seem to think if you do anything for clout, you will go far. First let me break down what clout means. The urban definition for clout is doing things to make you famous or to have an influence to people. I think some people don’t realize famous people have to pay their dues to get where they are at. It doesn’t come easy. A wise man once said; if it comes easy then I don’t want it.

I know for me I appreciated everything that has been given to me. I didn’t get them easy. I had to work my butt off. I’m still working hard to get things. I’m actually glad that I wasn’t one of the ones that everybody handed things to me. I had to make sacrifices in order to get it one day. For me, I love and appreciate more. If it was given to me freely, I would probably use it and abuse it. I would look at it as quantity not quality. Celebrities like Tyler Perry and Julia Roberts came from humble beginnings to get where they are. It took hard work, dedication, and perseverance.

I feel like people need to use their talents and gifts to them where they need to be. Showing your body and your dance moves are going to get old after a while. You need to have something with some substance that’s going to get you off. You also have to pay your dues to be able to appreciate what’s been giving to you. Otherwise, you are going to come off as a spoiled brat. Sorry if that hurt your feeling but that’s the truth.



School Days

You get your new clothes. You get your new shoes. You make sure you get all the supplies you need for school. You make sure you get plenty of sleep. In the middle of the night, you get no sleep. You are so excited to go to school until: you can’t get any sleep. Then, you wake up when the alarm goes off. You get up and get dress. You are rushing to get to school. You are at school. You get really nervous about everything. In your mind, you don’t know what to expect. You don’t know what to do. Your palms get sweaty. You are at a lost. What happened with me getting excited for school to now I don’t want to go to school.

I was this way when I entered high school. I was so confused. I didn’t know what to do. I even went back to my mom’s car and told her I couldn’t do it. My mom calm me down and told me everything was going to be alright. You have been waiting to be here. You are going to do great. After about 30 minutes, I was fine. I walked back in. I waved at my mom letting her know I was good to go. I walked in again. I looked around. I was like this is a huge place but I can do all things I put my mind to. My mom gave me that phrase going up. It stuck with me. I kept saying it 3 times. I took 3 deep breaths. I walked with my head held high. I was okay after that. I saw my friends. I went over and chatted with them.

Being in school will have you nervous or excited. One hand, you want things to be perfect. You want perfect grades. You want perfect attendance. You want to make more friends. You want to be accepted by everyone. You want to join different clubs. Try not to overthink the experience. It will have your emotions all over the place. If you are a shy person, try to find someone that’s stuck in the corner looking for a friend. If you are nervous, have someone that can guide and encourage you to be great at all things. I know for me I can be an introvert or an extrovert. If I have known for a while, then it’s easy for me to make conversation. If I don’t know you, it takes me a minute to warm up. Once I got over my nervousness, I was able to succeed in school. I made good grades. I had great friends. I was able to be in different clubs to help my community. I loved it. Sometimes, I wish I was back at it.

The advice I would say to any young person being in school is be you. Don’t try to overdo it. Young people put too much pressure on themselves to be perfect for everyone. When all you have to do is sit back and relax. It’s okay. You can do all things you put your mind too. Don’t let anyone pressure you into doing something that makes you uncomfortable. It’s not worth it. You are pleasing them but you need to please yourself first. Also, I would say love the person you are. Be in love with your goofiness, your snorty laugh, and how you present yourself. Be in love with you. Don’t let anybody you have to be someone else when God made you to be you. If they don’t like, they will be plenty of people that will love you. One more thing, you are very intelligent. Don’t downplay your intelligence for anybody. If they want good grades, you tell them they need to work hard like you to get them.



IT’S SNAKES AROUND YOU! IT’S SNAKES AROUND YOU! Chile, you got to be careful now days. People are out to get you.

The reason why I started my writing with that is because people today are sneaky. When you down, they love to be down with you. When you get up again, they are plotting to bring you down. I’m the type of person that I give everybody the benefit of the doubt. I also have my eyes and ears open at all time. If I get a connection from you, there is nothing I won’t do for you. At the same time, I plot things and say things just to see who’s really in my corner and who’s there for an opportunity. I have people take advantage of me and treat me any kind of way. At the same time, I was lost and didn’t know myself. Now, I am so in love with myself until my intuition triggers me right away. It’s sad that I have to be on guard for the most part but sometimes you have to be to protect yourself.

I chose to write about this because: it happened to me, recently. I was friends with someone for a while. I thought we had a connection instantly. Our life stories are similar. Everything felt right…in the beginning. I’m the type of person I’m loyal by default. When you hurt me or I feel the vibe is wrong with you, I will cut you out of my life. I thought me and my friend was fine. One day, his friend came out of nowhere saying things that wasn’t true about me. I was looking confused. I’m looking like, “where did this come from?” I’m cool with everybody but I don’t share myself with everybody. For her to come at me like this…I was like something is up. I feel it in my spirit. So took a step back to analyze the situation. The question I was asking myself was: Where did this come from? Why is it happening to me? Who would feed this energy to her? When I answer the questions, it came back to my friend. I took me off guard. I thought our friendship was great. After this incident, I was like why would he do this to me? I thought long and hard about it. It came to me. He’s not happy with himself. He has a negative energy about him that will drain your soul out. I am a happy and bubbly person. I like to bring joy and happiness to everyone. I guess he couldn’t take my personality. He tried to belittle me. I’m the type of person I rise above anything. I might be hurt but still I rise as Maya Angelou would say. Today, I don’t talk to him anymore. I just step away from the situation. I have been happy and bless ever since.

Advice: Love everyone and be careful. The people you think is for me may not be right to you. Also, it’s good to know you can stand alone. Sometimes being by yourself is the best medicine for my mind, body, and spirit

Is it worth being on social media?

I have been on social media since the MySpace days. It was fun being there. You got a chance to meet and greet everyone. You knew who Tom was. It was so nice. Now, we have Facebook, twitter, instagram, snapchat, and etc. Back in the day, things were fun and exciting. Now, you have the “mean girls” around. You have people that praise you. Then, you have people trying to tear you down. It sometimes gets a bit much. I know for me I like being up there. I love meeting people and learning new things. Then, you have the trolls around trying to bring you down no matter what. You have people killing people. People are committing suicide. It’s crazy now days. I know today people use social media to help and grow their business. It can be use to get a record deal or get discover for the film business. Also, you need to be strong enough for the trolls. They are lurking out there. I know for me, I love being there. I use Facebook for my family and classmates. I use Instagram for entertainment and to advertise my blog. I use twitter for the political and local news. I use snapchat to show my goofy side. When I feel overwhelm, I do take a break from it. I like to mediate and connect to my mind, body and spirit. Once I get happy, then I get back on it. I try to not to let things get to me because it’s for entertainment. If I ever feel like it gets too much. I will delete everything and be happy without it.

Dating at 35

I’ve been use to being in a relationship since in my teens. I love the way it feels. It makes me feel all bubbly and cheery. There’s nothing like it.

After getting out of a 10 year on and off relationship, I was like I need to be single for a while. I need a detox to figure out what I want and need. When you so use to getting the same treatment from different people, I need a break. I LOVE being in a relationship with myself. I never thought I would enjoy it this much. I can do what I want and whom I want without any regrets. It is so freeing. I have a single for almost 4 years. Recently, I was like let me try to get back out there. Let me get my feet wet a little bit. Chile, it sucks. Either they want you to chase them or they are clingy as f$%*. I just don’t understand it. What happen to the days where a man chase you…wanted you…and was willing to do everything it took to win you. Call me old school but I love that. It feels good to have that. The guys I have dating is not making me feel like that AT ALL. It’s like you have to cater and spoil them. When it comes to getting it in return, they look like you dumb. I just get it. It’s very confusing to me. I know soon I be meet me the man for me. I shall wait. Until then, I got to have my fun in the process hehehe.


This word has meant a lot to me over the years. It hasn’t been an easy process to say the least. It’s definitely getting easier as I get older.

Let’s start off with the definition. In the Webster’s dictionary, patience means the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset. Chile ain’t this the truth. The way I imagine my life to be growing up, it definitely didn’t turn out that way. I wanted to grow up and playing in the band from 6th grade through 12th grade. I wanted to join the basketball team. I wanted to go to college to be a nurse. I wanted to be a delta sigma theta while in college. I wanted to be married by 25. I wanted to have 2 kids by 30. None of that happened. I was the one that everyone relied on. When things didn’t go right, I had to fix it. When someone got sick, I had to be the one to heal him or her. When people needed things put together, I had to do it. When you have the world having their weight on your shoulders, it will be a lot. I pretty much put myself on the back burner and took care of everyone. For years, I didn’t know why things are happening the way they are. I resented a lot of people for it. But one day, the Lord spoke to me. He let me know I got you and everything will work out for you. I was lying there like okay…but when is it going to happen.

Things didn’t start changing until a couple of years. Everybody was and is able to do things on their own. When I got the time to myself to think and process things, I was like what am I going to do. I was happy but scared at the same time. I started thinking what do I like, what do I want to do, what do I want to accomplish. As time went on, I started thinking about it more and more. After a while, I started trying things. I started writing, reading books, wanted to be in the IT field, and take trips. As of today, I have those things and more. I’m so bless.

Advice: Things will work out in due time. Patience is a virtue but it will be worth it in the end.

The Law of Attraction

The steps I take to do law of attraction is I take 10 deep breaths.

After that I repeat, I have grateful for what I have. I am happy for who I am. I receive the blessings heading my way. I repeat this 3 times.

Then, I say money is coming my way. I am paying off my bills.

I am happy and grateful to be working in my dream position.

I am happy and grateful to have my own business.

I am happy and grateful to be successful in my life.

I am happy and grateful to be a lender and not a burrower.

I am happy and grateful to be a help to my mom, my church, and my community.

I am happy and loving the person I am.

I am happy and grateful to be around the right people.

I am happy and comfortable with the love flow in my life.

I am with the love of my life.

I am happy and grateful to live near the beach.

I am happy and grateful to travel first class everywhere and anywhere.

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